August 1st already

So, today is the first day of August... the first day without cable or internet at home, only a little over 100 days before I get married, and hopefully soon I will have a full time job.
I can't believe this year has gone by so far already. We're almost to the fall months, even though here in Florida we dont get our fall months until late November, and then we pretty much go straight into winter. But its all good. Starting in September, its going to start getting hectic for me. Have to get the fittings done for the wedding, order the tuxes, finish the guest list and send to the planner, and finish up the rest of the wedding things. Then its on to October, when we have like 15 birthdays including mine, the bridal shower, the guys "man shower" for Chris, and a few other things. Then its our wedding month, November! We'll have my bachelorette party, then our wedding day and honeymoon cruise, and shortly after we get back Thanksgiving. Which is suppose to be at our house this year. Not so sure how that is going to work and I'm already stressing about that, and its a few months away still. Plus, after the wedding, I'll have to spend time and money changing my name on everything, and who knows how stressful thats gonna be. Oh and lets not forget the christmas shopping I have to find time and oh money out of thin air for. How the heck am I going to do all of this. Its seriously freaking me out. Like all I want to do is ball up and cry for awhile. So much to do and not enough time or money to do it all. Plus holidays are stressful enough, we have to find time for 4 different thanksgivings and like 5 different christmas' because of our families. AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *screaming* cause its so much to even think about, even though its months away still. This whole year has gone by so fast. Let's just hope for my sake and insanity that I found a full time job or win the lotto, or something really soon. I'm trying my best to stay positive but finding it easier to see the bad side of things lately. I need strength to stay positive, hope that I will get a better job soon, and a clear mind so that I can stay focused on the things that are really important and let the things go that aren't.

“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”
“Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing.”